What the f...ork?

(excerpt from my journal entry dated November 18, 2011, a Friday)

Nanaginip ako kagabi. Except now, I don't remember what it was. Basta nagising na lang ako na medyo down ang spirit ko. Hmm... Bakit kaya? Hindi ako nagising sa alarm ng cellphone ko. Basta nagising ako from that dream, and ayun, I feel negative now. I'm beginning to question life and its purpose again.

So now I'm writing about it, not to rationalize about it but merely to detach myself as a passive observer of the experience. I prayed before getting out of bed, told God about my dream and the way I feel about it...what else?

You know what? I'm actually beginning to feel light already. What the f...ork? Hahaha. Siguro it's just gas. I farted just now and, hehe, I belong! Haha. Isn't this crazy? One minute, you're down, the next, you're smiling. It's amazing!

Just now, I laughed out loud, and I am all alone in the kitchen writing this at around 5:30 a.m. Those of you who are reading this must now follow the flow of my thoughts and the emotional development that goes with it. It's either you're smiling now, or maybe you're thinking that I have a loose screw somewhere. Where is this writing going anyway? So nonsensical. Geez! Am I bipolar? Do I have chemical imbalance in my brain? Enough of that now. I feel light already, what does it matter?